invisible 2004

can you see through me
am i transparent, do i glow
do i have substance
is there bone in my marrow
are my eyes open
if i had feelings would they show
if i was dying
would you even want to know

alibi 2004

i do not have an alibi
life's so fast i'm scared to blink
the page is full, my pen is dry
my heart's run out of ink

i can't deny i've tried to fly
my feet are rooted to the ground
sink or swim? i'd rather cry
than live a life that's watered down

Exhale 1/9/00

What I see:
lines curving
drawing cleanly
swoop of the pen creates
the picture not complete

What I feel:
satisfaction
completion
fulfillment
pour it into the painting
into the cup of page
express the swimming image

What I question:
what is it
why do I see it
why can I not create it
why can it not be

Release - exhale

Joan 03/01/2000

To the waters
You awake her and bring brightness to her dreams
Youth and energy shine in her eyes,
spew forth from her mouth,
and come to life in her movements,
when she's thinking of you.
A vibrant lover
She clings to you
Her flute a silver extention of her passion
Melodious and free,
she expresses all that fills her soul.
She paints images of you:
Her brush the words she speaks, the music she plays;
A canvas in the many hues of her love.

To the girl
I see your longing, for that which completes you
Dive in, plunge into the depths,
The arms of your lover, the ocean.
As the waters rush over you,
encompass and refresh you,
be free!
Live your dreams, your fantasies
Return to your true love,
Let your spirit soar like the Eagle,
and set each other free.

Untitled 2/12/00

Maybe if I stroke your face
All your fears will go away.
If I lay my hand on your heart
Can I draw out all your pain?
If I hold you in my arms
Maybe you won't feel so alone.
Are you frightened? It's okay
I'll catch you when you fall.
Such a hard road
Is what you face.
I'll face it with you if you'll let me.
You can trust me
I promise.
Sleep tonight
I'll pray for you.

Egos Thorns & Crowns - date unknown

Sign my name in blood
For the 1st spring rose in bud
Give up my firstborn
For the light of another morn
Too much to sacrifice
To satisfy our lust and vice
When will we lay down
Our egos, thorns & crowns

See her strike a pose
Dressed up in the emperor's clothes
See him take his cross
With eyes so full of loss
Vote for a government
Wonder where our choices went
When will we lay down
Our egos, thorns & crowns